i am so sorry i have been so neglectful of you lj...i haven't been on since my last entry. life is moving fast right now and i am so busy! love you all and sorry for slacking!

xoxo mel

haters gonna haaaate

my baby boy

last night's halloween MAY have topped last years because I'm not throwing up this morning.

I can't wait to get the pictures developed, they are going to be such a mess.

Tuesday, me and Fish went to my salon to get our hair done. My hair is REALLY orangey now I lovez it. It took forever but was really worth it. Julie and Mike met up with us at the salon and me and Julie did Fish's make up so she's look more like her fake i.d. Anyways, we drove to CHINATOWN to go to this random bar to see NOBUNNY, &HUNX&HISPUNX! Box Elders also played they were pretty good. There were a million weird people there [lots of fat girls in strange leotards; strange dudes with orange binoculars; and lots of adorable gays] and when I was walking into the bar I was wearing this new cleavagey shirt I bought and a bunch of gay dudes [including Hunx and Johnny Make Up from V.I.P.] started cat calling at me and telling me I looked like I just got off the cat walk. I was so confused I just smiled and ran away.
Hunx went on and was AWESOME. I wanted to be dance-y but I was to shy and not drunk [lame I know, but I made up for it!] During the first song or the second Hunx came up to me and pulled on the bow on my shirt and oogled my boobies, it was FANTASTIC. He is sooo fucking adorable. After Hunx, Nobunny went on and I went fucking crazzzzy! I was jumping all around and dancing and I even got to sing with Nobunny during one of my favorite songs! [Mess Me Up] I was dancing and hopping and I had my hands on my head like little bunny ears. The aforementioned fat girls [I don't mean fat as a mean word or a good word just a description, I want to make that clear] started grabbing me and hugging me and rubbing me and I was sooo confused so I hopped away and Fish and Mike ran up and danced too. I got all crazy during Boneyard with Fish it was fucking awesome, probably my favorite Nobunny show. I also brought a disposable camera [i already got it developed, I'm scanning them tomorrow] so I will post pictures of the show tomorrow or something!
After the show I dropped off the Julester and me, Fish &Mike went and ate Del Taco.

OH I also got a cool Hunx pin [it's a giant square one] and a giant Nobunny pin, as well as a Hunx tape.

Yesterday I mostly recovered from the show, and then went to Julie's and we hung out for a bit and I showed her the pictures and drove her back to my house. We got amazing foodz too and we took 100 stupid webcam pictures where I was half naked in. Then she went to Mike's and me and Phuong hung out.

Today I bought some clothes with my mom and some boots.
I got 4 bras [one leopard retro torpedo bra &one black and white polka dotted one]
-I get really bummed shopping for bras cause my boobs are so FUCKING gigantic I can pretty much only find grandma ones that fit but this time I got some cute ones that seem really sturdy...we'll see
-Pants
-Fishnets &thigh highs
-2 pairs of boots
-a belt

and I went to my salon and got a Hot Stone Massage....SO fucking good...Then I picked up some vegetarian pho from across the street and ate dinner with Phuong. I also put away my laundry and cleaned my room a bi. phuong put away my dvds!

Anyways I gotta start working harder in class...I have slacked off SO much this week it's baaaaaad. I think I can make it up though. I took kind of a mini vacation from work...4 days off in a row has made me VERY lazy.


Anyways here are some stupid pictures!














me looking like a hot mess in my super boob shirt after nobunny

I got my red dress in the mail. It fit like a fucking glove, I love it.
( I wanna snap your neck and spit on you )
Last night Ryan came over around 10 and we went to Vinyl Solution to hang out with Mike, and Brandon was there. It was pretty funny just talking about dumb stuff with drunk rock Ryan. Christine's friend Travis and his friend Cody showed up so I said hey.

Then me and Ryan got food and hung out at my house till around 2:30 talking about stuff. We made a list of dudes for me to seduce for the lolz. It'll never happen but it was still funny! Babe's Warehouse is having another Halloween show-Cat Party, Audacity, Thee Make Out Party, and Thee Cormans are playing. So I am probably going to that cause Babe's is always awesome.

Today I have to go to work from 3:30-9:30 and for 4 hours I am gonna be by myself....LAME. I'm bringing a book to read in the shampoo room fuck that shit!


NOBUNNY/HUNX & HIS PUNX/BOX ELDERS ON TUESDAYYYY go with me!

Sometimes working in a salon is shitty, but other times it's pretty fucking rad. Next week I'm getting my hair done, a massage, a manicure and pedicure, and a facial for about 60 bucks....it would probably normally cost over $500 dollars.

my 2d professor really dug my design today. the one in the entry below so that was neat.

you have no idea how much i am looking forward to my 4 days off next week....they are on school days but still...

dudeman is asleep on my bed...so cute

today my mom was talking about how she wants a new kitten or something...hrmmm! ^_^

i told julie to tell me a sexy outfit and this is what she came up with... mmm sexy timez with myself

the only boy i seduce

sleepin

project for my 2-d class...probably the easiest for me so far...while doing it he said it was good, the critique is tomorrow, i hope it's good. i<3 2d

gotta get spiffed up for work

Mayyors is playing with Le Face &the Lamps January 15th at the 5 Star Bar...YESSSSSSSSS

So, I have literally NO room in my room to do my art shit for school, so after begging my mom for the past week, we moved my uncle's old drafting table [i used to use it a long time ago] into the guest bedroom and put up a shelf to put my art stuff on. It's SO much better. Just me, the desk, my acrylic paints, and Big Black in the background.

Today was my first day off school+work in so long, it's so nice. I feel like I've gotten so much done today that I wouldn't have gotten done.

Anyways, pictures before Christine calls me to pick her up:



my "mini" studio! it's little but very convenient. also, notice the spiffy exacto cutter i got. i'm working on a project right now....it's sort of kicking my ass but, i'll kick back.

my mom being a creep<3

fishstyx wants to make out with you

getting cuddled by my beatrix at 8 am this morning ^_^ i know i look like a troll haha

when my cats are bad i put them on time out in my laundry basket...nerdy was hitting bea and chasing her and she was scared! what a bad boy! he jumped out of the basket after about 30 seconds :P

wearing a fuck ton of make up at work ....

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. Not at all. Nope. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends.

01. Your Middle Name:

02. Age:

03. Single or Taken:

04. Favorite Movie:

05. Favorite Song or Album:

06. Favorite Band/Artist:

07. Dirty or Clean:

08. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

09. Do we know each other outside of LJ?

10. What's your philosophy on life?

11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?

12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

13. What is your favorite memory of us?

14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:

16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?

17. Can we get together and make a cake?

18. Which country is your spiritual home?

19. What is your big weakness?

20. Do you think I'm a good person?

21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?

22. Describe your accent:

23. If you could change anything about me, would you?

24. What do you wear to sleep?

25. Trousers or skirts?

26. Cigarettes or alcohol?

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)

28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

I used to sell jewelry I made on etsy a couple years ago, but since then I haven't really shopped on there or anything but now I am. I am obsessed with Lush [it's a soap store near my work] but it's REALLY expensive there, but I found a couple sellers on etsy that make duplicates of Lush products for about the 4th of the price. So I'm getting in the mail these things sooon:
( mmmm snow fairy!!!! )

shit, i took an allergy pill last night and i thought it didn't work [cause i thought i had a sinus headache] so i took a migraine pill this morning thinking it might be a migraine. well i don't know what happened but i feel high as fuck. maybe my drawing class will whiz by then! BOOGALOOOOOOOO

Nobunny NOBUNNY nobunny NOBUNNY nobunny NONONONONONONONONONONONONNONONO! NOBUNNY BBONNUNNY

why are you such a stupid asshole?

this is...this is fucking ridiculous

I am being pathetic. I haven't felt this lame since high school. I hate seeing people that look exactly or almost like someone I used to care about/still do but don't want to. It always stops me dead in my tracks.

I am FINALLY caught up with school. Jesus Christ. This weekend was a long one. My back hurt all day long yesterday, really badly I guess since I didn't stop moving all weekend, but I feel a million times better today. I had a short day at school because in Art History all we had was a quiz and I finished it in 10 minutes. So I came home and finished all my art homework, or at least prepped for all my stuff I have to do tomorrow. It's so nice to just sit for a while.


I keep thinking about stupid shit. It's been almost 4 months and I still can't get over it. I guess I was setting myself up for disaster though. Basically being celibate for 3 years, coupled with my dad passing away last December made me a lot more vulnerable than I thought I was. It makes me feel real fucking stupid too since I rarely let shit get to me. I guess this is what happens to me when I actually like/care about someone. I hope it never happens again. I don't think I could handle feeling the way I did all through July and August. It makes me feel lame and weak thinking about how I begged him to at least talk to me, I'll never do that for anyone ever ever ever again. That's not me at all. At least he's not around for another 3 years, maybe more.

I just realized I have been single for 4 years with nothing even close to resembling a relationship with a guy. I haven't been on any dates and I haven't really been asked on any serious ones. I don't remember the last time a guy said I was pretty or anything or hit on me. I don't think I am ugly, girls tell me I am pretty all the time and people tell me I'm funny and interesting. What gives? People tell me to stop looking and I have for 4 years and there is nothing, this is very depressing. I feel like I have so much I want to share with someone but I don't think I ever will. I don't know. I feel so lonely sometimes. I just want a dude to paint with and cook for and cuddle with while watching hitchcock movies.. Everyone has days where they feel ugly and unwanted but for me that's everyday. I don't get what the fuck is wrong with me.

I don't get how people think this woman is fat.




wtf?